Through my life I have seen the hand of God do some amazing things in my life. An opportunity, a nudge in another direction, etc. usually following fervent prayer.
I had thought that was what was happening when I left my husband after a life-changing incident.
The grief from my divorce and all the connected losses was crippling. Even after 5 years I still cry when the subject comes up. I have wondered all along if I had indeed made a mistake by leaving. If it actually wasn't God's will but my own self-will run riot.
I have prayed and prayed over this and asked Him what His will really is, and (as I have so many times in my life) said, "God you know I'm rather hard-headed so you may need to knock me upside the head for me to know what You want from me". As usual, He pretty much did. He removed an option.
Ex-dh has decided to let his deceased dad's widow come live with him. I never got along well with her. She's 85 and though her family is in Montana and Nevada and I guess she would rather move to Oregon with my ex-dh. The "BANG" I hear is the sound of a slamming door. Time to get my hand out of the door and move onward, looking forward and Upward.
Isn't He amazing?
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